I’ve never found it so difficult to write. My dictionaries are useless. I can already hear you saying, “Sweet Blachère.” So instead I made a list of everything I loved about you.
My angel, my love:
I loved it when you made lists of things you wanted, and you wanted a Harley Davidson, a loft, a 22,000-euro titanium Leica, and you would say to me, “What? You work at Paris Match, don’t you?”
I loved it when you called me Blachère, or Blacherounette, when you had something you wanted to ask me….
We were prepared for everything, except for the worst. Ochlik, I don’t know how I can go on without you. In Rome, you told me, “love is a weakness.” You were wrong. Today I feel strong. At Christmas you gave me a notebook and told me to, “write down the story of our lives and read it to our kids.” I promise that I will tell the story of that life we dreamed of so often, a life that I’m now going to have to live for two.
I’m not sure if you miss me, Ochlik. I miss you. Madly……”
Read it in full on Le Journal de la Photographie but better still listen to the author speak it in person on BBC Radio 4, ‘Broadcasting House’ which is available on BBC iPlayer here. It is at 54 mins in, but listen to the end, and to the presenter’s response.
The power of radio. The power of love.